Sooner or Later

I want a normal life
just like a new born child
I am a lover hater
I am an instigater
You are an oversight
Don’t try to compromise
I’ll learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated

-Breaking Benjamin

My Wednesday…

It was nice outside once again. I had to wake up early this morning. I was my brother’s only ride for work. I had a hair appointment at two… And I believe she did an alright job. A little shorter than I expected, but she earned her tip. I went to Southside tonight for Youth. I must say that their youth minister is a very powerful speaker- Very eye-opening. I will deffinately go back sometime for Wednesday nights- even though I am sure to stick with New Hopewell on Sunday mornings. For now anyways…
I dropped by Meredith’s for a while after I got home. I needed to talk to someone. And, of course, she never lets me down. She opened up my eyes a little more toward something I thought I would never even dream of. The subject scares me, but at the same time, I could see where she was coming from. I was in a bad mood at my arrival, but she was able to ease it as time passed on. By the time I left- it had pretty much disappeared. I am still thinking about it, but I am sure it will not be as big of a deal as it is now by morning. Well, atleast I hope not.

Keep in your prayers a Friend of mine who is seeking God.

Colossians 2:10

And ye are complete in him, which is the head of all principality and power-

Col 2:10

Love Is…

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Waking to the Sound of Rain

I can always count on my day to flow rather smoothly when I am awakened by the sound of rain. First of all- Rain is one of the greatest weather formations… Atleast to me. Second, Thunderstorms, sometimes accompanying rain, are very powerful yet relaxing. I sometimes find myself captivated by their arrival. They force you to think of a greater force existing beyond the rigid, confined lines of society. God never ceases to amaze me.

Jeramy arrived at my house around 1. He brought a movie, and after watching it, we rented another. We ended up talking for a while before he left after the movie had ended. I must admit our conversations together are one of my favorite things we share in our relationship. It is nice to learn a little more about him every day we are together. I am glad I have someone to talk to about anything that might come to mind at that very moment.

No rain tomorrow, but the sunshine is looking pretty tempting.

Vindicated

I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I’m right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

-Dashboard Confessional

Happy Easter

It was a beautiful Easter day. Last night, Ayla invited me to go up to Gatlinburg with her and stay the night. Her and her mom rented a room up there, and she wanted me to spend some time with her since we don’t get to do that very often anymore. It was really fun. Her mom bought all of my food while I was up there-which was really nice of her. We ate at Blaine’s and then at a pancake house for breakfast in the morning. We also had ice cream and whole bunch of other junk food… And I loved it. I miss hanging out with some of my girlfriends. I have ignored them over the past two years… Be it school or me just being my antisocial self -And I wish I never did. We also got Henna tatoos together which are pretty cool. My legs are killing me though. I think we walked the strip a total of eight times down and back while we were there. I think we hit almost every store that is along that road too. We even visited the aquarium. Then we went swimming for a couple of hours on top of that. But- it was a really nice day yesterday and today. Even though I kind of got sun burnt a little today on my face…
I promised to call Ayla later on in the week so we could do something else together before Spring break ends. I can’t wait. Plus- She has been saving money for a road trip (Sometime after school lets out)- Her mom said she would help out a little too. She would like for me to go- Destin, Florida- She has family down there so we wouldn’t need to spend money on a place to stay.

Good news- My grandmother seems to be doing a little better. It is extemely nice to hear that she is laughing again. (Praying continues)

The Taste of Ink

As long as you’re alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

-The Used

Friday

It felt great outside today. Me and Jeramy took a long walk… and then came back and played some basketball. (I won, too- Do not believe anything that he tells you. ::whispers:: He is a bit of a sore loser.) After that we went to rent a movie, but ended up not watching it anyway. Instead, we got a couple of blankets and went to lie down in the grass in my front yard. We talked and looked at the stars for a while. Then, the cold night air started to sweep in, so we made our way back indoors. It would be great if the rest of the week felt as nice as this- considering that it will be our spring break. But, I hear that it has a chance to rain from Sunday until Tuesday. After that, the weather looks pretty nice. In the 70s by Wednesday. : )

Moods swings are not a good thing. It starts to bother me even more when someone brings it up- Or asks if I have ever noticed that I get them several times throughout the day. I am going to try and work on it… But, if I cannot totally fix the problem- Then I dont think that I will ever be able to- And I might just have to live with it. But, I’ll try my best not to take it out on those who I care about the most.

My grandmother has yet to make it out of the hospital, but I am still praying.

The Used

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful thing

-The Used, “A Box of Sharp Objects”