Obsessive?

I have spent some of the longest hours of my life at my current job. Sometimes, there is absolutely Nothing to do at work- except sit down… right in the middle of the floor. Well, atleast that is what I did today. I try to past time by constantly straightening and pulling… even if it really doesn’t need it. Something might be the slightest measurement out of place- and I restack the entire thing. I found that this something- even that small- is annoying to me. And it becomes an impulse to try and fix it. A plus side to this obsessiveness: It passes time a little more quickly. Anything to do while I am there to pass time is always a plus. A down side: Getting yelled at by someone who thinks you are following them…

The story:
Today was amazingly slow. I have never seen so much… nothingness in one of the biggest stores in Tanger. I was so incredibly bored… So I basically did what I mentioned earlier- straightened and pulled. Until… there was finally nothing left to straighten or pull in my zone. At all. So then I sat on the end of one of the folded tee tables (there are three and I sat on the one in the middle). The seat was right in the middle of my entire zone. So now I could keep my eye on… the whole group of no one shopping in my zone.
Finally, (two hours later) a group of black women- three- decide to look around for their husbands something (atleast that is what I caught from all the talking). They looked around a few minutes, and I occasional look over at them to make sure they don’t have any questions are look confused about any of the signs about our sales (You know- My Job). They make their way to the folded tee tables… And I get up. So I slowly stand from my comfortable position on the end so I will not be in the way of their hunting. I move behind them out of the way- keeping my eye on every last tee they unfold to look at the design and then toss to the side (remember my obsessive impulse to fold them back…). They start to move off and I fix the little creases they made in a few of the shirts and refold about three shirts they didn’t like… after unfolding it (even though you can see the design in its entirety by the way it is folded without having to move it- or touch it at all). They move a little to the left of the table I was sitting at to begin with, and I make my way back to the comfortable seat I made for myself earlier. Quickly, the crazy older lady whips around and stares at me for a moment. (Even though I don’t know if you consider it a stare because it was only a moment…) I flash a smile because I know she doesn’t need any help, and honestly, I didn’t feel like asking if she needed the help anyway.
“Can I ask you a question?!” she says while raising a hand a little higher- I guess to make her seem more powerful, but she didn’t even have to do that. Her face frightened me enough.
I raised my eyebrows to give my approval. “Ask away,” I thought. “Just maybe you can ask for a size that I will have to go to the back to find for you. Something to do to pass time would be wonderful…”
“Why are you following US out of everyone in the entire store?!” She says raising her voice and changing her tone.
I stare at her for a moment- almost in shock.. “Huh?” Is all I could muster…
“You are following us!” She states once again. I understood that part. The “huh” was because I couldn’t believe what she was assuming…
“I am not racist. I am not racist…” Is all I kept repeating in my mind at that moment… I felt my face turn hot with embarrassment- thinking I had done something wrong… And she was going to tell my boss… And I was going to lose my job… that paid good…
“She is not following us Mama,” the “daughter”- I assume- told her. She quickly stepped between me and her “mama” when she heard her start to raise her voice. “Do you have this size in XXL?” she asked- Nicely.
“Uh, No… That is the last we have in stock,” I stuttered.
“She was following us. I saw her move,” The crazy lady mumbled while turning away with the other two.
“Of course I moved…” I thought. “I am not a mannequin. I am actually a customer service/ merchandice flow specialist. And that is my job- to assist you if you need it… Crazy person.”
Four minutes later: “You can leave early. No point in wasting away another half hour since we are so slow today,” says Pat- one of the many store managers we have.
“Thanks. Heres the radio.” I say… then go back to my locker, get my things, and leave.

I hate people.

Alethea visited me today. I haven’t seen her since camp. I am excited to see everyone tomorrow at church. And, thank God, I don’t have to work tomorrow.

Sale

Hm, Green Sticker Sale…

And that is about all I can say for today.

First Day

First day of work at Nike. I was kind of nervous at the beginning- thinking I had no idea what I was doing (which I didn’t). After the first hour or so, I got the hang of it and started to have more fun than I thought I would- It being the first day of work. I found that I absolutely love my job- and I am glad I quit Splash… even if it was after the first day. The people I work with are hilarious and most are extremely friendly. They also try to help you with anything and everything if you need it (or even if you don’t), which I really appreciated. The only problem… My feet are killing me. I sat down once today- and that was at lunch. I didn’t even have the energy to walk someone outside the building. I gladly stationed myself in the break room and enjoyed some highlights of last night’s game (I knew the Spurs would take it).

Jeramy’s party was a success. I knew he had absolutely no clue, which was the best part-obviously. I think he was glad to see his friends- including Jamie, Aaron, and Dave. I just wanted to show him how much people really cared about him. And I hope he was able to see it in everyone who made it to the party yesterday.
Thank you All who came. I appreciate it. And I know he did, too. Thank you Jamie and Aaron for letting us use your house- Even if a few of them tried to eat cake on your bed…

I will sleep very well tonight- no doubt.

June 23

Happy Birthday Jeramy!

-Cierra

I am Frylock from Aqua Teen Hunger Force!!
Which Aqua Teen Hunger Force character are you??

Beautiful

A man should hear a little music, read a little poetry, and see a fine picture every day of his life, in order that worldly cares may not obliterate the sense of the beautiful which God has implanted in the human soul.

-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Two Days

More training at Nike today. This time, however, it was incredibly long. Apparently Robert likes to go into detail about every little thing. I realized I didn’t like him at all after he made a few comments or actions toward a few insignificant things- which I just simply did not like. I don’t think I will enjoy being in his presence very much at all. But atleast we got shoes… I guess.
It has been a while since I have spent time with Meredith. We went to eat, and that pretty much took up the whole period in which she was waiting to go to work. She wanted to do something tomorrow, too, but I have no money to be able to accompany her.
Jamie called me after she returned home from work, which was later than I had expected. I ended up spending time with her and Kaitie until Jamie had to be home once again.
Jamie asked me to go with her tomorrow to the mall and maybe a movie afterwards. I told her I would probably go, but I might end up going home early so I could attend church later that night.

Only two more days until J’s big eighteen. ::cheering crowd::

Too Obvious

Beautiful day today. I am so glad to see summer weather in Tennessee- besides all of the rain.
I had training today at Nike. It is so hard to act like I am just friends with Jeramy (and nothing more) and not try to avoid him (which would make it too obvious). It is so natural to grab his hand when he is close or even walk closer beside or behind him when he is walking. I really have to pay attention to my actions- making sure not to do anything when the boss is watching. I figure- in the end- We will act as if we met at work. They can’t do anything when we are already hired, right?
I didn’t feel well today. I was planning on attending church tonight all day today. Until I found myself traveling back home fifteen minutes before service started… I had the worse headache- The crazy kind which inhibit your vision and make you feel nauseated… I really tried to play off likeI felt well enough to go, but Jeramy isn’t easily fooled. I wanted to go. Especially to the game after church at Dave’s. I love hanging with everyone- Because I became so much closer to all of them last week.
I will see them soon- No doubt.

I love you Jamie. I am glad you called to see how I was doing.

-Cierra

Who am I

I had one of the most powerful weeks of my life. So many people rededicated their lives (which is something I decided needed to be done in my own life), were saved, and surrendered to Christ. The camp was life changing for some many people. I have never laughed and cried so many times in just four days alone.
One of the best parts about the trip- except for being able to worship God for 94 hours- was being able to meet so many different and unique people. I did not realize how close the camp could bring everyone from Southside together- until, of course, I found myself upset 94 hours had already passed and it was time to return home once again. I will never forget the moments when several people gave me a shoulder to cry on and a friend to cry with. It was truly incredible.

Jamie, Aaron, Dave, and Alethea are an amazing group of people. They made the experience that much better …
Jamie is one of the greatest listeners I have found in the longest time. She is never judging, and accepts others as the person he or she is. She is also Always incredibly happy, and she passes the joy on to anyone she comes in contact with. I am so glad I was able to spend so much time with her- and be her roomie.
I also spent a majority of my time with Mandi- who also has one of the greatest personalities and one of the largest hearts I have Ever seen- It shines in everything she does. I admire how great her relationship with Luke is- although I have no complaints about my own. And she is absolutely beautiful- Inside and out.

The camp really opened my eyes to so many possibilites. I was placed on this earth with a purpose, although I am still not quite sure what it is. As long as I continue to spread the Word and be faithful to my Lord- I am on the right track, and He will lead the way.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I’m calling,
Lord, You catch me when I’m falling,
And You’ve told me who I am …

I am Yours.

Camp

There is only one word to describe this camp- And that word is Amazing.

Excited

Jamie called me this afternoon.

Well, people… It looks like I am going to church camp for the week. : )

-Cierra
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