Timing

29 11 2005

I have so much to do. I have plenty of applications that are unfinished. I have a scholarship- painting- that I haven’t even started. And I have several books to read (basically all of the summer reading for Honors English.) I am wonderful at time management.

I really need to read…

I actually went to work today. Dr. Leah was showing me how to do dental work on a 90 lb. Lab, but it was hard to keep up. She was running behind and had a patient waiting in another room. I could tell she was a little stressed and in a rush, but I didn’t think I was going to have a very hands-on experience today because it wasn’t that busy. Or at least a hands-in-mouth, anyway.
“Well, I guess I’ll leave it to you. Scrape away!”
Yes, people. I gave a dog my first teeth cleaning today. All by myself. I felt so… special? I couldn’t tell if it was a privilege or if I was being stuck with the dirty work. Hm. I will never know.





Remember to Focus

18 11 2005

“Wait… We were friends!”
I love Ashley. She is hilarious. Intelligent- 5th in our class, but lacks all common sense. She went on to tell me a story the other day about French II last year, but didn’t notice I was finishing her sentences with her. She continued to be excited about her story until I finally told her how weird it was that I was in that class.
“No, you weren’t.”
So, I spent about 15 minutes convincing her I attended that class… and passed. In fact, I sat right behind her! I even had her remember a project we once had to do and how we were partners. Then I tried to refresh her memory about our conversations in that class and a few inside jokes of ours.
And her final words, of course, were: “We were friends!”
Light bulb.

I now know what I would invest in if I had around $600. A digital 35mm camera. Maybe the digitals cost more or less, but 35mm cameras are amazing. I spent about four hours with Jamie on Tuesday. She needed to get rid of some color film because she had black and whites due in class the following week. We ended up taking a walk and stoped here and there to capture a few of the trees, the sky, and a couple of road signs. I eventually had her pose for a few recent pictures of her since she lacked some. She was sort of dressed up, and the color of her hair looked really well with all of the fallen leaves.
She basically showed me how to measure the lighting and use the focus- she left the rest to me. We were excited to see that they turned out really well after spending an hour in WalMart trying to find something to do while they developed. She wants to have another shoot soon outdoors, but it will be difficult to stay out there too long due to the below freezing temperatures and the wind.

I can’t believe I had one of my best friends tell me she had figured out what she is going to do next year about collge. “I am going to Walters State.”
What happened to UTC, ETSU, UTK, or maybe even MTSU? She seemed so excited about getting accepted already into half of those, and now decides she just doesn’t have the money right now. No one has the money for college. But I don’t see why that changes your future goals. Student loans. Scholarships. More loans… Talking to your financial advisor. Those seem to work, too. Don’t just be happy with a community college. It would be different if she REALLY wanted to go there.
(This is no offense toward anyone attending a community college in the near future. It is one thing when you want to go there- it is another when you go there because you feel there is no other choice.)

School is boring. I have come to the conclusion we only cook in HomeEc because the teachers forgets to bring her lunch some days. And I lunch time is the worst thirty-five minutes of the entire day.





Large-breed Poodle

13 11 2005

A ton of research tonight. Endangered Specias Project due Tuesday. I can’t believe it is almost Thanksgiving.

I love Ax. He is sleeping on me right now, which I am still unable to figure out how he is doing so. He is nearly thirty pounds and is falling off of my lap- still snoring. He has to be one of the whimpiest large-breed puppies I have ever seen. We took him to PetsMart yesterday to choose any toy he wanted. I was tryint to give him a bone, a ball, a rope-ball combo, but he was not interested. He finally chose a stuffed lamb doll. Wow. In fact, it is down by my feet right now. We have named the stuffed animal-squeaky toy ‘Bah.’ I think he should have been a poodle.





Feeling Super

9 11 2005

So many people made me feel wonderful today.
The Voice over the intercom: “All superlatives please report to the cafeteria. All superlatives.”
I stepped into the hallway to see Cody right away. “Cody,” I whisper-yelled. He, being a nice person, waited for me to catch up and we walked together. All the superlatives made their way to the cafeteria, crowding the tables, laughing and smiling. Andy sat in the middle of the mob checking his list and making arrangements. “Most School Spirit, where do you want your pictures taken?” Like the Title was the two students’ names.
I looked at Cody. He seemed as thrilled as I did about picture day. Andy looked our way. “Cody and Cierra, where do you want yours done?” We shrugged. We honestly didn’t care. We should have been voted ‘Most Likely to Go-With-The-Flow’ or something.
Most Mischievious: “What are you?”
“Most Talented,” I murmured.
“You are? What do you do?”
“Thank you…” I thought. “I am talented enough to make myself invisible…” I looked at her a moment before answering. “I paint,” is all I could really say about myself.
The Voice over the intercom: “Superlative pictures have been cancelled for today.”

Fourth period rolls around. The pictures were on once again.
We all met outside the building to set up for pictures. Some take theirs by a tree, some inside in the library, others on the football field. Cody and I decided on the auditorium.
Andy: “Why don’t you go to the art room to get a few props for your picture.”
“Sure,” I said. And grabbed Meredith.
I enter the art room. Mrs. McCroskey is not there, which made me depressed. I already knew her doors to the good art supplies would be locked. I was bummed.
The Substitute: ” What do you need?”
“Props for the superlative pictures- Most talented,” Meredith said pointing to me.
“Don’t they have microphones, music sheets, and stuff like that in the auditorium?” the Sub said. Some one was in a bad mood that day. If sub-ing depresses you that much then do not do it.
“Yeah, its a good thing I paint.” I said sarcastically. I probably shouldn’t have said that, but people were not making me feel very good about myself today.
“Oh. Well, get what you need, but bring it back.”
“I’m sure she really wouldn’t miss a paint brush,” I thought. There really wasn’t anything else I could use.

Our picture didn’t turn out as planned. And I looked kind of random standing in the auditorium holding a paint brush and smiling. I decided we would have ours retaken we the photographer returns. I told Cody I would simply be painting Cody’s face to look like the Phantom of the Opera while he looked at his music in the next shot. He felt it was a pretty good idea, and just maybe it will follow through. Anything would be better than the one we took today.

I hate pictures… unless you are Gary Woods- I hate pictures.





Back to Monday

6 11 2005

I thought I would never get out of bed this morning. I wasn’t really tired anymore- I was just too lazy to move.
I figured going out last night with Jamie and Jessica would have been pretty entertaining, but the only person entertaining enough to laugh at was some guy at Tonic too drunk to walk right posing in the mirror for about ten minutes. He acted as if he were being photographed- acted serious for a few poses and then managed a few smiles and winks on the others. He even grabbed a stool- pulling it out in front of the mirrors. We couldn’t stop laughing until he started to walk our way grinning. We just happened to be sitting by a few guys (which turned out to be a few friends of Jessica) so I moved over a little closer and told the kid I was with him. He laughed because he already knew what I was talking about. Jessica and Jamie grabbed their cell phones acting as if someone had just called them. The crazy drunk paused a moment to observe our actions before walking in the opposite direction. The boys laughed and mentioned they too would have been a little freaked out if they saw that guy coming toward them- thats when Jessica suddenly realized she knew the guy from school and hadn’t seen him in little over a year. Good for her.
Other than that, we only stayed for an hour- if that. Absolutely no one was dancing, and there were way too many people enjoying the night with more than enough to drink.
I think I have decided not to go dancing for a while. I upset some, and disappoint others when I go. And I’d rather them not be…

Chicken Little is a cute movie. I didn’t really know what to expect, but it was worth the money.

The weekend always flys by. And I hate Mondays.





About to Break

5 11 2005

Jamie is probably one of my closest girl friends. I felt bad for her yesterday, and ended up spending the whole night with her. She was feeling depressed and nervous about her ex-boyfriend going to the movies with a few girls. I told her not to be worried. I can tell Justin still loves her with all of his heart, but people cannot just wait around for someone if they never come around. This is the first time Jamie has not broken and fell right back into his arms, which makes her very strong, but I sometimes thinks she wishes she would have. I promised her we could probably do something tomorrow night as long as I got time to spend with Jeramy if he is home at a decent from his programming competition thing. She sounded excited about my offer, and will call me sometime around six this evening.
Guilty is not a fun feeling. I knew I would feel that way if I hung out with Jamie for the rest of the night. And. It doesn’t help that I will not see J today. And. The date is the 5th.
Depression is a horrible thing. And I hope I didn’t help throw someone into it.

Today: Clean, walk, eat, work out, clean some more, and take a shower- maybe…





Barely Beginning

3 11 2005

I’ve finished Speak and now I have started Invisible Monsters. Speak was awesome. The story: a social outcast and how she now perceives everyone around her, the ‘IT’ that haunts her biggest fears, and the strive to become invisible. Chuck Palahniuk, the writer of Invisible Monsters (and Fight Club), is an awesome writer. I have barely hit the fourth chapter, and I already like how he sets up his readers for what he feels is important and what is not.

Today sort of resembled my yesterday. Fortunately I cleared a few things bothering me, but then created a few more. I almost think I make my own Drama or maybe it just likes my personality and thought it would hang around for a while. I love the company…
What is bothering me the most lately is being the Only person yet to see a friend who has been back in town for almost a week. Strangely enough, he is some how tied to a few of my other friends at my schoo,l and they have recently had the chance to meet/hang out with him. It is odd hearing stories of (or seeing pictures of) someone I used to be so close to from someone else I would have never expected to know him in the first place. Oh well. I will see him soon. Maybe.

Tomorrow is a Friday. And then comes Saturday, which is sort of an important date, but, unfortunately, it will probably not be celebrated. I cry.





The Day

2 11 2005

Horrible and Extemely Crappy describe my day perfectly.