Not Enough Hours in the Day

Good day. Spent time with a new friend. Game tonight? Exam tomorrow morning. Studying and more studying tonight. No tanning bed this evening. Read. And maybe dinner…

if I have time.

Pretty okay day. It seems like no one even bothers to show up for school anymore. It gets to the point that attending seems pointless- probably due to the movies and all of the “study days.”

What I Thought

Happy Easter? Church was good. But right after service, I didn’t get a very good phone call. My friend’s house was messed with last night/night before?- property damage, a police report, and names of those they “know”(assume) did the job… Not good. Especially since I automatically defend those people…
—How can I not? And I don’t even know the whole story? Why does everyone feel they have to hold things back from me anyway? Not want to hurt my feelings- Because I am sure no one can hurt me anymore than I have been in the last two months—
I don’t want to be wrong. And its hard when I have close friends on both sides. I am not so much as angry as I am disappointed about everything. Now I am almost positive I upset one of my best girlfriends because I stood up for what I thought is the truth.

I never win.

When do you get to the point when you just stop being nice?

The Draining Sun

So tired. Just finished three miles at the track. (Wouldn’t be half as bad if there was a slight breeze? Felt like ninety degrees this afternoon.) I’ve been trying to get back into that… All this week I have tried to do something more active than I am used to. I love being in shape, and I could use this before prom anyway. Yesterday, Jamie and I did seven miles or a little more… It was very refreshing… and freaking hilarious. Hiking is always fun with Jamie. Battling thorn bushes, jumping “rivers,” and crossing a three inch thick pole with a distance of about five feet- talk about balance- I love it all. It was pretty exciting. And I love being out in the sun.
I’ve spent a lot of time at the lake lately, too. I’ll probably spend most of my summer at Bren’s lake house. Wakeboarding, jet skiing, tanning, and grilling out… Best summer ever? Looks like it might be. Plus, Bren and I have become so close over the past two months. She is very much like me, which I would have never thought. But I guess I gave her less credit then she deserved.

So, I finished another book yesterday. I’ve missed reading. Its really tough to do while having English, but I should probably push myself a little more anyway. I plan on starting a new novel Monday. And, as always, I will try to finish it within one week. A new book every week is kind of like starting a new week different from all of the rest. I like it.

Made a new friend this week, too. He’s very cool. Very laid back. Not complicated. Trying to convince him to come to Ekklesia with me? Trying my hardest. I’d love it if he came. He knows almost everyone that goes to my church anyway. He’d fit right in. We have already made plans this summer… Heh. Trip to the beach? Spending time with me at Bren’s lake house. Attempting to wakeboard without breaking any bones. And being bums. Sounds good to me. Too bad I didn’t meet him before I was about to graduate…

I really do not want this week to end. One of the best weeks to have a Spring Break- I mean, with the weather like it has been. It kind of hit me when I went to Kroger today and ran into Mrs. Miller… She looks about as excited as I am about school starting up again. She is definitely one of my favorite teachers. I love how she treats us like adults rather than the confused teenagers that we are.

Sleeping Awake

So, I’ve been thinking a lot. Lately, I’ve been having really vivid dreams. I haven’t had those in a while, but over the past week I think I have had more than one every night. I’ve always believed dreams tell you things. Its just up to me to listen to them.

Church was good tonight, but I wanted to think more about it and not enough time to do it. I think more when I drive, so I left. Day-dreaming. Now I am home, still thinking.

Maybe I’ll have another dream tonight. A dream that will fix things.

Too bad they are just dreams…

Flights

You will find
That Im everywhere you go
And I’m all the places you will not be
You will find
That I’m everywhere you go
And I’m all the things that you wanna be

Constanly moving
Your heart is just wasting away
Endlessly waiting
Your life is just slipping away…

-Falling Up

Passing Thursday

Better this week. Stressful no more. I turned in my research paper early today. Extra credit never hurt anyone. I’ve felt like I have been working on it for ages. It got to the point I was thinking about Ballot Measure 11 and the possibilty of parole more often then I would have liked. I’m glad it is over.

Good converstaion with Mandi today. I am praying for her. I swear that girl knows how to listen to her heart. Mine screams and I still ignore it. I love her. And I honestly think everything will play out like she hopes. It’ll just take time.

I missed church yesterday…

I’m going to get alterations for my dress this evening. Sort of dreading it. I know my mother is upset… and I really don’t want to drive up there again for something They messed up on. It all means more money- monet we don’t have. But I’m excited about Prom. I absolutely love my dress. First dress I have ever worn and been completely in love with. I guess I am just picky… But this one meets all standards. Feel free to check it out:

The Dress