So, a few days ago, you said the following to me before I left:

“You don’t like hanging out with me anymore.”

Funny. You were the only person I ever wanted to hang out with…

What I’ve Been Thinking About Most

The stress is taking its toll on me. I thougtht the last week of school would start to slow down, but it just so happens the teachers rather cram in impossible projects before we graduate. I guess I shouldn’t be such a procrastinator… But I can’t help it? Actually, thats a lie. I really need to get off old habits before college.

The thing I seem to be thinking about the most lately: Where am I going to live? So, I’ve decided the dorm thing is a definite No. But… Do I commute? Or do I try for an apartment… I’ve heard more than enough opinions from everyone on this subject, but I think I would be happier if I just did what I wanted to. I mean, I have to learn sometime. If I can’t handle it, then at least I had that experience and I know my limits. I truly believe I could save enough money this summer to afford the first seven to eight payments on this particular apartment my dad found me. And through those seven to eight months… I would have to work enough to pay the last payment which is $375. I am almost positive I could make that amount over a seven month period. I don’t think I would be stretching myself too thin. I really need to get out of my house and gain some independence. I want that. I want to know what that is like. I know I should not be in a huge rush to leave my house, but I am. I want to work for something, and try to see if I can make it on my own.

And I passed my research paper by two points… Go me.
(Can’t imagine the grade I pulled for my Stats exam today.)

Only two more days…

Then high school will be over forever.

Quote

“If one day you find someone better than me,
I hope she feels the exact same way I feel when Im with you.
I hope she makes you laugh and I hope she makes you smile
but most of all, I hope that never happens because I never
want anybody to get the chance to see how amazing you are
and that smile belongs to me.”