Bellum. War in Latin. Bellus. Beauty in the same language. Funny how one letter can make such a huge difference. Today is a weird day for me. Actually, today is a terrible day for me, but I am not that worried about it anymore. Not after talking to a close friend this evening. There are a lot more things in life that I could be worried or passionate about than what I was focused on earlier. God is great, by the way. I don’t think I have said this enough. I would like to say that I have, but sadly I have not. God is the only beauty in this world- I have decided. The war is worldly. “Well, I am sorry you are miserable.” Wow. I can’t believe I gave that impression to … anyone. My bad day wasn’t even all that terrible? So, I think like this: It could always get worse, and I am just thankful that it isn’t. My friend’s thoughts on the issue:
“See…and that’s another thing. Why are we still following the Bible that was SO long ago when times have obviously changed? That’s why we still have racism, sexist, bigots, and homosexuals… Not to mention all the wars. The one we are in right now.”
Because that is the World.
“No that’s religion in general.”
Religion is so vague.
“I just feel better about myself now. Like, I am not so afraid of people judging me anymore.”
As you shouldn’t.
“I’m not afraid to be me anymore. I hated feeling like I was always walking on egg shells.”
You are not afraid of having to feel guilt anymore.
“Maybe I am just not meant to believe.”
Where is the beauty in war? We are at constant war with ourselves, are we not? When do we cross a line that tells us we can finally be happy with what we are- who we are. There isn’t one, is there? I’ve been searching for it for a long time. It is like a giant brick wall you literally run into at full speed, and in no way are you prepared for the impact. Is this a realization everyone runs into at some point in their lives? Actually, I think I am greatly saddened by the ones who never do. I couldn’t even answer half of the questions this friend asked me tonight about my own faith…
It’s just Faith.
“I have never met a true Christian.”
Then you haven’t been looking.
“No one’s perfect.”
Exactly. But we don’t have to be perfect to believe. David was a man after God’s own heart, yes?
“So, God rewards us for sin?”
God rewards us for what we do for Him, not the World.
God doesn’t reward sinners even if it does seem that way sometimes. God is not out to get us. The Bible never said that life was going to be easy with Christ in it. I mean, Christ was murdered- for us. So, what do you think that means for his followers? Eternal life, and life on earth isn’t where you begin it. If we were not tested or vulnerable to temptation, how would we ever grow? He gives us the opportunity to come to Him. He presents us with situations where we can give the glory to Him, and see His good works. The Bible does say be faithful through the good days and the bad. And in that way, we will be rewarded… as Christians.
Tomorrow is 7.7.7. Apparently this has importance that I wasn’t aware of until about five o’clock this morning. I was up because of a nightmare, which is another story, but someone else just so happened to be up at that time to tell me about it. Rapture? I could only hope. We all struggle. That is nothing new. This world is broken beyond repair, and He knows it. But that doesn’t give us the right to just give up. We give a lot to God, but we can’t give our Faith to him. That is what we are here for. I have a lot to pray about tonight. My brother is getting better. That is one praise. My friend’s sister has found a place for the Lord in her heart. That’s another one. The list goes on. We are truly blessed, if we could only see it. Be the Revolution? Yes, but be the now too. If you are not living to live, then you are only living to die.
“Christians. God. Church. It’s all overrated. It’s all completely hypocritical.”
If anything, change that. Change that view on Us… for Him.
Stand your ground, putting on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that you will be fully prepared. In every battle you will need faith as your shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed at you by Satan. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
-Ephesians 6:14-17
This is War.
